~ hurt in a deeply~

why after u going uk ，u suddenly be an another ppl?
did u know u just broke ur promise?
did u know i am very painful?
did u know after u went to uk ,i everytime waited ur messaged?
i know i am stupid ，i think u will went to uk,   u will find me,miss me or somethings....
but the truth is  me just thinking too much only....
izit me like a toy?
if u boring ,u played me
if u nt boring ,u ignored me
if u nt like me?~ u will throw me in a rubbish bin..
i know me just a mistress...
just giv u play it d mistress...
i also know if u see tis,u dont care also~right?
or u will say to me~u in thr are very busy,u no anytime can chatting  to me...
ya~ i know u very busy~busy tat saw me sent to u d mesagged u ignored it....
me want happy or cry it?haha
u know ,i really think in one question.tat question is"why god everytime will gv me a big joke?"
izit me giv ppl played god will be happy?
maybe will..........:)